The spreadsheet was made redundant within the FIRST half an hour of Monday morning as it became obvious that sticking to hard timelines was not going to work as we didn’t know exactly when work calls would come in and the children wanted to do different things, at different times.
I had a mini breakdown and cried a lot, as what happened on the first day of my big plan, did not meet my expectations. But I realised that in order to get through this uncertain period I would have to let go of all expectations and just try to muddle through and do our best.
It’s currently day three and although I feel exhausted, I feel I have got over the initial shock and stress of accepting we do not have all the answers and we won’t know when this will all end and that’s ok. It was good to have a breakdown and a cry to let it all out and now I feel calmer and at peace with all the uncertainty.
I feel lucky to still have a job; I have seen friend’s businesses completely dry up overnight because of this crisis.
I feel lucky to have a garden; I have friends in London who are trying to homeschool without a garden which adds an extra layer of difficulty.
I believe this crisis will fundamentally change the way society operates, the way we work, politics, the education system, it has accelerated trends that were already happening like working from home, collaboration software, e-commerce.
A world first happened this morning when the UK Prime Minister used video conferencing software Zoom to hold his first ever virtual cabinet meeting.
So out of great disaster comes great innovation and new opportunities to do things in a better way.